Detroit, the Paris of the Midwest

So I heard that Detroit, is the Paris of the Midwest. It got me thinking Detroit was a beautiful place back in the day. Tons of shopping center and places to eat. It didn't have the bad influences it has now. My great grandpa told me that he and my grandma would pack all the kids in the car to take a drive downtown to see the Christmas lights. I think that would be neat to see how Detroit once was.I guess the layout of Detroit was copied off of Paris. I put in a link so you could read more about.

Arnold Schwarzenegger's Love Child what is up with that? I always liked that man. The thing that blew me away is that the woman worked for him and Marie for 20 years and he supported the child who is now ten. The lady was married on top of that and his kids he had with Marie played with this unknown child. Marie had contact with this child for at least half of this child's life. That is just too crazy. Off with his head I say. I can't stand to hear about this stuff It's just defeats the whole purpose of getting married. Why cheat on your love one? I'm so glad Steve and I have trust first and for most. We are friends have been for a long time. I think because we were friends first we told each other everything we were able to be ourselves around each other. There was never any pretending with each other and no matter how hurtful something was we told one another.  I think a lot more  people should have that bond with their love one. You should  live with that person first to see if you can live with them or not. I guess I'm lucky my hubby is a man who will clean up after his self ,cook and clean just as much as I do. It's great to share the household stuff 50/50. With both of us working the  house and two kids it gets a little crazy at times. On those days the dishes just don't get done. I can hear my mom now in my head telling me those dishes are not going to wash themselves. lol Gotta love her! I get some of my clean freak attacks straight from her. I guess what I'm saying you should really get to know the person you are getting ready to marry before shit comes out of the closet. Arnold was married for 25 years you think I do meant forever. In today's world it's only for sometime now. Steve and I will be 85 years old dancing in our front yard still married. Marie walked because he cheated and I know that would be the reason for me as well. Once a cheater always a cheater. Besides Steve doesn't want to become a head on my wall. lol He loves and respects me to much to put that kind of pain on me. I think he has shown and proved his love many times. I know my hubby is fateful because I trust him completely. I never have to worry where he has been or where he is going. He always comes home to his wife of six and half years. I love you baby!

Meet Bob

He is our fury little squirrel that has become our pet. He is the best little pet we have ever had. He is not a picky eater in fact he loves bread, nuts, bagels and today grilled cheese.  Christopher has even feed him. He is so cute! He likes to hang out on our window seal to get our attention so we will come out to feed him.

This is for my Brother and His Fiance

On Mother's Day I was a little unsure what to say to my new soon to be sister in law. My brother just lost their little girl in April to a birth defect. It was nothing they did stuff like this just happens sometime. She was five months along. I didn't know if I should buy her anything maybe a card. I knew of all days this one would hit her hard. She didn't even get the chance to know her little girl. When they came over she held Christopher the whole time. I'm not sure if it helps her or just makes it worst.I know what she is feeling. I remember the child I lost before Justin. It was like someone tore out my heart. I felt like I had no reason to live. I was a lot farther then that I was with my recent two miscarriage. She had to give birth to a dead child I could only imagine the pain she felt. They drive around at night to just get away to ease their minds so they don't think so much. It breaks my heart to see them in pain.  I know nothing will replace their little girl. I only hope both of them get the chance to have a little miracle child of their own one day.  I couldn't sleep so I wrote this poem for them.

From the first day I met you and held you in my arms.
Their was a love that had an unbreakable bond.
I will never see you smile.

I will never hear what you sound like.
I will never hear you cry.

I will never hear you speak those words that mean so much to me.
We were told you didn't have too much time left.

I only had you in my belly for five months.

I had to make a choice with your daddy.

I didn’t want you to be in pain.
Then all of the sudden you were gone.
You were the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.
Your love cut through me like a knife.
I loved you more than the world alone.
And now I'm alone. I have this emptiness inside that can’t be filled.

Today is Mother’s Day I don’t know what to do.
I try to come off strong but I cry over you every night.

Now they tell me I may never be able to feel a life grow inside me again.
You were too young to be taken like that.

What did I do?

Was it my fault?

How come this happen to me?
Two closed eyes to rest.
God took your life to prove to me, He only takes the very best.

Soccer

Justin stays busy during the summer time. Now he is taking up soccer. Today his team won 7 to 3. It was a great game all the kids did very well. His last game Steve and I are yelling at the team telling them what to do. It was great we lost our voices his last game.  Justin was so muddy from the field but that’s okay he is a boy. I love him to death Justin is the reason I get up in the morning.  I love seeing him happy. It’s so funny I get all the questions about everything he holds nothing back from me. With his dad it’s all about sports or building something Steve never gets any questions like I do. I love that we share a close bond with each other it’s special to have that with your child. Christopher and I already had a bond since he was conceived. Steve calls just to hear Justin’s voice on the phone. He is such a great father. He likes to say that’s my boy out there. Go Jay! Practice is great the coach makes Steve go out there to help with the kids. Justin gets a kick out of it because his daddy is great. The other parents thought Steve was a professional soccer player. (lol) They didn’t believe me when they asked. I told them no he wasn’t a soccer player but a man of many trades. Justin and Steve share a different bond with each other a father and son bond.  They do everything together. 

6 months old

Wow, Christopher is already 6 months old. I can’t believe it. He is getting so big. He already has his daddy’s attitude although Steve says he gets it from me. I beg to differ but anyways I adore my little Popsicle he is so cute. I have to say I’m a little jealous that he says dada first. Justin said momma first so I guess I will give this one to Steve.

This month has been crazy taking Justin back and forth to swimming, soccer practice and games not to mention boy scouts. It has been keeping us very busy. In all of this confusion I ‘m trying to put an ending on my book make a cover and all the stuff that follows. It would help if Justin’s stuff was on different days but no that would be asking too much. I just got Justin’s spring pictures back and he is not my baby anymore he is growing up. I sat at the table Monday just bawling my eyes out. Jay thought I got a paper cut. (lol) I just hugged him then told him way I was crying he gave me a hug. He said he will always be my baby. How cute is that! Good news I just lost 5 more inches off my waistline. I can say hello to that little bikini I have for New York.  Working out 3 days at the gym and the other days at home are really paying off. I get like addicted to it.  It's great! I’m thinking about taking some classes to work towards my black belt this summer.  My sister is due in July and she is so cute with a belly. His name is brain she picked a name out already. I can't wait to meet him.

What count’s in a child’s life?

I have been thinking about my boys. I really have been thinking about kids in general and the question that pop’s in my head is this. What really counts in a child’s life? I believe that when a parent is involved in their child’s life it’s a very important part of growing up. I mean when they are born to their first words they say. Justin’s first word was mommy and Christopher has already said daddy. Children go through a lot of change from the time they are conceived to their first steps. I miss the baby days now that I can see Christopher go through them. I know relationship get hard and someone always gets hurt.  Families are made up of many people blood or not.  Anger keeps many kids from one parent most of the time because it’s the adult who can’t grow up. They are hurt for reason’s they see fit at the time. The truth is they can’t handle the one they once loved are now with someone else.  Children need people that love them in their lives and only people who truly care about what they are going though. Now don’t get me wrong if the parent is violent in any way yes the child should be kept from them.  Otherwise there is no reason a child should have to grow up without a mother or a father. Children should not be held as leverage for money or personal gain that only one parent benefits from. They only benefit them by hurting the other to see how far they can push their buttons. Some parents just give up because fighting with the other gets nowhere. Some fight back just as hard as the other  then the children grow up knowing not to trust in someone they love.  I see this all the time and it breaks my heart.  Many children are raised by wonderful people who are not their parents to start off at.  They grow with the child they become the parent they have always needed.  Many parents put their goals  first instead of their child well being. We have always put our children first. Steve and I will do anything for our boys.  Justin always see’s us happy we never fight because we have no reason to. We are a very loving couple who enjoys life. It is what it is.

Favorite movies, foods, first smile, first cry, likes and dislikes are something a real parent knows about the wonderful little person that comes up and calls you daddy or mommy.  You are the one they turn to when they are hurt or sad. You know exactly what helps when they are sick. You get to cheer them on at a soccer game. You are there on his first day of school to see that your baby is growing up. You are there when they make the right choice to stand up to another kid who was picking on them. You get to see the light in their little blue eyes when they get an A on the spelling test you help them study for.  Taking them to swimming classes, martial art classes, boy scouts just watching them grow up is a gift in its self. Being able to hug them after they walk out of school is priceless. Watching their little face light up at the zoo or seeing them hug their little brother brings tears to your eyes. Let’s not forget their first broken heart, first love, prom and going off to college.  Children don’t need to hear how bad you think the other parent is by bad mouthing them. Adults need to embrace the time they have with the children they help bring into this world.

Steve and I are able to share all these happy moments in our kid’s lives together. Our boys are going to be great at whatever they chose to do in life because they have are unconditional love and support behind them. I wish more people put the kids first. Life is too short to miss any of the above.

The Forbidden Dance Is Lambada

just heard J-Lo new song “On the Floor” it took me back to this movie The Forbidden Dance Lambada.  This movie is one of my favorite’s I can remember my sister Nikki and I used to dance to this every time it came on. Another favorite artist of mind is Jon Secada “Too Late to soon” along with Bryan Adams, Whitney, Wilson Phillips, Ace of Base, Coolio, Shania Twain, Madonna, Maya, Usher, Britney Spears love the new album. There are so many to still list like En Vogue, Run DMC, Selena “Dreaming of You” I fall in love with this song every time I hear it. Nsync my son is named after of them Steve was against it but being the man he is he let it be.  TLC, Next, Cher, and let’s not forget Los Del Rio for the Macarena thank you.  Wow, it seems so long ago from the water balloons fight we had with the neighbors to bike riding to tot lot with friends. My most famous out of school parties I had in my backyard with the help of my BFF Cindy. Being in the 90’s and having 4^th grade be one of the best times it was a blast. I can only say life has just gotten better with every step I take. I love it!

Centralia Pennsylvania

When we leave to go to New York this summer we have to go though Pennsylvania.  I want to stop at Primanti bros to eat their famous sandwich. I had seen the movie silent hill a few years back I was curious if there was a town that burn so I looked it up online. To my surprise there is a town that has been burring for the last forty years due to trash that was burning in a pit near a coal mind. It caught on fire and the city burn. Only a few people still live there. Signs are posted not to go into the town but people do.

Above is the 400 Block of S. Locust Avenue, west side in 1985.  The Speed Spot Bike Shop is pictured on the right.  Below is the same corner in 2001 with only the Speed Spot remaining.  The Speed Spot has since burned to the ground and no remaining structures exist on this block. The town is still burning today. I have to say it’s kind of freaky in away to see all these pictures. I find it interesting that people go to this town still.  I think I would want to go but having the kids with us and with the toxic gas and unstable ground it’s just not worth it. I added a link if you want to check it out.

http://www.offroaders.com/album/centralia/Centralia-1980s-era.htm

Pinewood Derby

This past Saturday Justin took second place now he is going on to district. I’m so happy he was great all the cub scouts were. Christopher took second place in the sibling’s race.  Steve and Justin worked really hard on the cars at the last minute of course. I tell you that man is never on time but they did great.  Finals are in April last
year Justin took third and in the finals he took 8^th out of three hundred kids. I think there were that many.  I'm not sure there were a lot from running back and forth from the bathroom with morning sickness I could be off a few. Pinewood Derby is where all the boys make cars out of a block of wood and race them within their den by age.  The winners out of each den race each other in the pack to see who goes to district. Then they race against other packs. The winners are pick for this year. Last year was great all the designs are out of this world but you can tell the cars apart from the kids to where the dads go overboard.

 Justin's car is the second one from the right the black one his favorite color.

Christopher's is the red one. The one next to it Jay made also but let his friend's brother use it to race and it won also.




My baby boy I love you so much!

I think cub scouts has been great for Justin. He loves it we are getting ready to help Jay get his horseback riding loop. He has so many loops we need to get him another belt.

Its nice Justin and his daddy get to spend a lot of time together even with Steve being the cub master. I love seeing them build things and talk about scouts. He has two more years before he is a boy scout although we have many more years ahead of us with Christopher. I have to take Jay to his den meeting tonight all the kids there are great. I would suggest if you have a boy to get him involved with scouts they make lots of friends and they get to do some awesome stuff. Justin honey Mommy and Daddy are so proud of you keep up the hard work.