Problem with being a Donor

There is always a need for a child in a person or couples life. That overgrown need to bear a child of your own seems to be strong among women.I never knew of this pain until I lost a child of my own.
I'm in the process of writing a book about about my experience of being Jennifer Smith 180. Jennifer Smith 180 is not my real name but to many couples that is the name on the eggs I donated to them. The thought of my egg with another sperm who is not my hubby I have to admit is strange. I joked with my hubby at least I will know what my child would look like black, with red hair and all the many different traits a child can carry on from the biological parents. I guess what I did was a great thing to do but the reason I became a donor was brought upon making a choice not to have any more children. I took a pregnancy test this past Thursday which was negative. To my surprise I really wanted to be pregnant. It's in our nature to love a child. I have been overcome by a set of emotions I never took the time to look at. I received a call to donate again. I' m not sure what I will say to my hubby. I love to be able to give a couple the chance to have children like I did all four times before. This time writing this book I think I have to deal with my emotions first. Look for my book in the coming year.
I'm Jennifer Smith 180
By: Myself Truly Patricia Needham

Little Fear

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This little boys is awesome! Look at his moves he is better then the girls.

Christmas Town @ Bush Gardens

My adorable hubby took us out to eat and the plan was to drive around to look at Christmas lights.I was getting homesick. Every year since Justin was little we always take a drive around the city to look at the decorations people put on their houses for Christmas. It's kind of one of our family traditions. Nope to my surprise we went to Bush Gardens Christmas Town. It's just like him to do this without telling me. It was very beautiful inside. The palm trees where all decked out in blue lights. As well as the entire town was just beautiful.  I wouldn't want to be the person who has that job some of the trees are huge.We seen an ice skating show that blew us away with the grace of the skaters.We all had a blast but for being Michigan people who have seen snow it was okay. I mean Justin didn't want to stand in line for over an hour to throw a snowball. It kind of seems silly. I'm amazed by how many people live here in Florida and have never seen snow. It's the little things in life that make a person happy. It was a great experience we were over joy by the Christmas cheer on the train. If you rode the train you had to sing. Everyone at Bush Gardens were very nice and cheerful. We shared hot coco took in the beauty of Christmas in Florida. If you have kids it is a great place to go see Santa ride some rides and throw a snowball. Take pictures with Elmo,Big Bird and Cookie Monster. Make sure you ride the train with the kids I think that was the best part of it all. Christopher has this love for lights its almost unexplained. I think its cute  he goes crazy for flash lights and trains. Seeing my children smile,laugh and sing just melted our hearts. We have came so far in a short time I'm proud of us all no telling what will be next. Merry early Christmas .